Reflections of the Night

At the end of each day
There is only one thing
To which
I can
Attest
When the sun fades away
And my thoughts lose their sting
Yes then
I can
Confess:

You are good and you are faithful
You are ever true and stable
You're my solid rock and anchor
In a sea of constant danger

The chaos of the day
Conceals these hidden things
That you,
Your love
Is best
Night's innocence displays
The glory of the King
Which puts
My soul
At rest.

The Father of Lies vs. The Father of Mine

He whispers, tongue slithers
Wraps himself round your conscience, shameless.
Sets his eyes on his next grand prize:
You.
Innocent you, awakened to truth
Illumined by light, never so perfect a victim
And so he begins to abuse and confuse
Sticks his foot through the door and you start to lose
Any conviction you once had regarding the Truth.
I've been held captive by his games, I hate them, despise them
Because now you're believing nothing but lies and
Your heart can't believe the truth though your mind does
He delights to see you suffocate in thoughts so mindless
Coughing and choking, you find yourself in an ocean
Desperate to escape but fooled into the notion
That He doesn't love you enough to save you
As if he's surprised by your silly mistakes, you
Don't get that he knew this would happen when he called you
He still did it, he still loves you, he still died, and he still wants you.
He's got a power that's stronger than any grip of the enemy
And his grip of your hand is unconditional, for eternity
Lies are merely the antithesis to everything he is
When you're weakened in your spirit, have faith, you're safe in His
He'll help you swim to the door of freedom, hope, and liberty
He's already unlocked it -- his scars hold the key.

In Light of the Truth

Morning by morning I wake and partake
In the reflection of myself, but the mirror's a mistake
It spews at me lies and it blindfolds my eyes
Its deceptions are my chains and its falsehoods my ties
It tells me though there's mercy every morning, I'm not worthy
To receive it, don't deserve it, cause I'm worthless and I'm dirty
Though He died for my forgiveness, I just somehow can't accept it
Because failing, I continue, without fail, till I'm rejected
But I need to see myself in light of the truth
I need to see myself in light of the truth

(chorus)
The truth is I have been reborn
And I'm purified, I'm white as snow
The truth is I have a power in me
Who's strength brings life out of my misery
And births forth freedom from my captivity
The truth is I've traded my sorrow for rejoicing,
Ashes for beauty and my mourning for dancing
You are the Truth and I'm hidden in you
In light of the truth I am beautiful and new

Evening by evening dejectedly you lay
Delusions clog your mind like waves crash violently at bay
Another failed attempt, another waste of a day
You're not worth the breath you breathe, your existence is in vain
But you forget the path that's paved, and the death that made a way
The debt he died to pay, and the lives that have thus been saved
All of this, all of this, to release your mind from lies
You're worthy, oh you're worthy, one drop of his blood has cleansed your life

(chorus)

A Brokenhearted Cry

You bid me to come, your arms open wide
But I'd rather retreat into a ball and hide
My dirt-smeared face and blood-splattered hands
Disguise all my brokenness as if you can't
See it and heal it and make me new
No I'm far too dirty for pure hands like you

Why is it so hard to forgive myself when you've already done it all for me
Why is it so hard to accept myself when you look at me and see no iniquity

No iniquity, ha, what eyes do you use
Show me cause I wanna see the way you do
You're not the problem, no you never were
How could you be, perfection is your character
It's me who hinders and me who impedes
It's me who refuses to see what you see
I'm drenched in guilt, shame hugs me tight
From the bottom of my broken heart I cry
I'm sorry for my stubbornness, my foolishness and lack
In taking hold of the liberty you died to give back
My blackened heart sinks in a pool of despair
And I cry with all that's left in there:

I need you, I need you, there's nothing left to say
I need you, I need you, I just can't bear to live this way

Stubborn

What do you when you just don't want
The thing that you know that you need
And what do you do when you know that you need
The thing that you just don't want?

The Royal Wedding

I would rather be the royalty I am: the daughter of the King,

While at the same time be the nobody I am; since You live instead of me --

Than be deified in the public eye,

Leave behind a name and make my mark worldwide,

While all the while knowing as soon as I die,

My inheritance and possessions will uselessly lie.

In this life I may be just an unknown little girl,

Occupying a portion of her unknown little world;

But I know when I go home and the sight of Your glory bows me down,

You yourself will be patiently waiting to adorn me with my own crown.

Broken Mirror

I'm a broken mirror

Shattered fragments

Sharp at the edges

Scattered on magnets

Untidy and unwhole

Missing pieces in my soul

I never please those who come to me

They hate the reality of what they see

For the only thing I can really offer them is

A reflection of their broken selves in my broken image

But if I can reflect You,

It makes it all worthwhile.

If it's Your beauty that shines,

No matter how broken my smile,

Then my existence is persistence

And your sustenance is my deliverance.

It's Easier to Run

There's a pit that I find myself in
Time and time again
It's dark and grungy, soiled and lonely,
Eight feet deep
And I can feel my death loitering
Lingering, lobbying, luring me
Calling me, singing my name
And it's all because of you
And this life that you lead me to
You're so perfect I can never compare to you
So I keep f a i l i n g and

falling
Eight feet deep
Crying and calling
pleasecomerescueme
But it's silence I'm steeped in
Your voice is now so foreign
I forget what it's like to be held by your love
And instead I'm wrapped in depression
Despair, demise, destruction
Are the blankets that cover me
But I'd rather taste death
Than live my life without your company
And it's in these moments that I say

It's easier to run
To put you in the past
To turn my back, pick up my sack
Pretend you never were

It's easier to run
Because it's then when I feel numb
I no more feel the pain and shame
That come with knowing your love

It's easier to run
Cause naturally I'm cowardly
But I won't, dear God, I promise I won't
Because I know you're faithful to me
And faithful you will forever be

Kaleidoscope of Colors

Pressing her palms against her eyelids,
She pushes, there's pressure, it's pulsing, producing
A kaleidoscope of colors.
In them she views
A face with her hues
Colors of red, orange, yellow, and broken
Blue, purple, green, and ugly
Teal, hopeless, brown, nothing
Nothing, she sees, intricately woven
Throughout an abstraction of images,
A kaleidoscope of colors